quick update

it's been a really long time since i last signed in. for those do not know but occasionally check this blog out, i've been busy, my thesis project has just began--like almost 1 month already. so much about life i can say, yet i have no time to, or what i gonna say will simply be mundane...

i have been counting down. it is 6 and a half month left. this is not to say there is something really exciting after this..but at least at least i will move out here..the little space made up by four walls, within it there are only desks, books, laptop, my part of the bed, and often the daily noise from facing construction works. other than these, i don't know what are the things worth to record down. sitting here, my mind is often drawn to home...i wish the lunch box in front of me would be mom-cooked home dishes...or the pps on the laptop screen is the tv in the living room...i wish i can talk to someone when i'm feeling tired.

i just do not know what is the balance in life. perhaps, one could never find balance in the life of archi student in final year...or i'm the one always losing balance. i dont know how much i can give up for this thing architecture.. i have been telling myself: this is the last year..lol after this, when i think it has made me has 'no life', i would quit. i have been thinking what to do, i thought teaching would be good. if i want to teach i will go back to fy.. i would want to teach maths and arts. haha i dont know if i'm even qualified..i've been thinking maths was really one of my favourite subject. but i wasn't a good student that listens in the class, i only learnt the method to answer the questions in the exams..never delve into why we have to solve the qs like that blah blah... after doing architecture, then i realized only if you know the idea/concept behind, you can look at the problems in new perspective and resolve it in all dimensions....or even, to be creative...if i were to be teacher, i would not spoonfeed my student ok...

enough of rubbish..i gonna do work.. i scared very scared...